Longer without you
Dear Phoenix, A few weeks ago marked 19 months since you passed. We have now entered a time I have been dreading – more time without you than with you. I only had 19 short months with you. It often seems so unfair that our time was cut short. The pain is unescapable. The pain of […]
Holidays
This was always my favorite time of year. I loved fall/winter – they are my season. And, while I still prefer these seasons over spring and summer (way too hot) I am not the biggest fan of the winter holidays anymore. I figured last year was because it was my first everything without Phoenix and I sure […]
Happy 3rd Birthday Phoenix!
Dear Phoenix, Today you turned 3! But, you were not here to celebrate with us. Daddy and I stayed up still the time you were born last night. We talked about my labor and your birth. 20 hours of labor and a c-section!!!! We tried to figure out what you might like to eat now. […]
2 Years Ago Today
Dear Phoenix, Two years ago today you had your first surgery. It seems like a lifetime ago. I wish the worst thing in my life was you facing another surgery. Mommy is selfish like that. I would take you back, even if that meant you had to have 100 more surgeries. Mommy is sorry that you […]
Reflections
This blog post will be more or less whatever pops in by mind. You have been warned. Wow, it has been a year. That is hard to believe. I survived a year without Phoenix; if that is what you want to call it. Surviving. Huh, honestly, I have days that I am what I call […]
Phoenix Roanne
Updated – 5-18-15 I can’t believe a nearly a year has gone by without Phoenix. There have been a lot of requests on how to help on May 21st. After some thought, Luke and I decided to ask that you do random acts of kindness on the 21st. Phoenix was an extremely happy baby, and we […]
One of those days
I am having one of those days. Where all I want to do is lay on the couch and be sad. Watch Netflix. Have someone bring me an Oreo Cheesecake milkshake. Scratch the milkshake. I used to share my milkshakes with Phoenix and it would be too sad to drink one now. Oh, and by […]
Easter Without You
Dear Phoenix, Tomorrow is Easter. This would of been your 3rd Easter. Now it is my first Easter without you. Would you of enjoyed it more this year? Last year you had so much fun picking up the Easter Eggs Daddy ‘hid’ for you all over the living room. But, you hated when we tried […]
March 27th, 2015
Last night Luke, Little Brother and I went out for dinner. While we were waiting for our food I look over to my left and there is this most beautiful little girl with Down Syndrome. She had this sprout of a pony tail on top of her head that was simply adorable. She had a […]
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