And that’s how you freak me out…
TRIGGER WARNING! CONTENT MIGHT NOT BE SUITABLE FOR SOME GRIEVING PARENTS CONTAINS POSSIBLE TRIGGERS ************************************************************************************************************************************** Last night, as I was checking on Little Brother, I went into his room as usual, but he didn’t stir. Okay, not unusual, he can sleep soundly at times. I placed my hand on his tummy. Nothing and […]
Little Brother is 19 months old!
Little Brother is 19 months old as of last Monday! I. Can’t. Even. Honestly, I started freaking out about this ( huge) milestone January 1st. As a result I am pretty sure I gave myself 7 migraines in 5 weeks. I know that the chance of me losing another child is slim, but God has […]
Longer without you
Dear Phoenix, A few weeks ago marked 19 months since you passed. We have now entered a time I have been dreading – more time without you than with you. I only had 19 short months with you. It often seems so unfair that our time was cut short. The pain is unescapable. The pain of […]
Holidays
This was always my favorite time of year. I loved fall/winter – they are my season. And, while I still prefer these seasons over spring and summer (way too hot) I am not the biggest fan of the winter holidays anymore. I figured last year was because it was my first everything without Phoenix and I sure […]
Happy 3rd Birthday Phoenix!
Dear Phoenix, Today you turned 3! But, you were not here to celebrate with us. Daddy and I stayed up still the time you were born last night. We talked about my labor and your birth. 20 hours of labor and a c-section!!!! We tried to figure out what you might like to eat now. […]
Reflections
This blog post will be more or less whatever pops in by mind. You have been warned. Wow, it has been a year. That is hard to believe. I survived a year without Phoenix; if that is what you want to call it. Surviving. Huh, honestly, I have days that I am what I call […]
Phoenix Roanne
Updated – 5-18-15 I can’t believe a nearly a year has gone by without Phoenix. There have been a lot of requests on how to help on May 21st. After some thought, Luke and I decided to ask that you do random acts of kindness on the 21st. Phoenix was an extremely happy baby, and we […]
One of those days
I am having one of those days. Where all I want to do is lay on the couch and be sad. Watch Netflix. Have someone bring me an Oreo Cheesecake milkshake. Scratch the milkshake. I used to share my milkshakes with Phoenix and it would be too sad to drink one now. Oh, and by […]
March 27th, 2015
Last night Luke, Little Brother and I went out for dinner. While we were waiting for our food I look over to my left and there is this most beautiful little girl with Down Syndrome. She had this sprout of a pony tail on top of her head that was simply adorable. She had a […]
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