Where I am at right now
If somebody asked how am I doing since Phoenix died, I would probably say doing okay or fine or some other dribble. In reality, it depends. It depends on the day, the hour or the minute. Sometimes it is 2 very different feelings at the same time. Take 2 nights ago, for example, Little Brother […]
And that’s how you freak me out…
TRIGGER WARNING! CONTENT MIGHT NOT BE SUITABLE FOR SOME GRIEVING PARENTS CONTAINS POSSIBLE TRIGGERS ************************************************************************************************************************************** Last night, as I was checking on Little Brother, I went into his room as usual, but he didn’t stir. Okay, not unusual, he can sleep soundly at times. I placed my hand on his tummy. Nothing and […]
Little Brother is 19 months old!
Little Brother is 19 months old as of last Monday! I. Can’t. Even. Honestly, I started freaking out about this ( huge) milestone January 1st. As a result I am pretty sure I gave myself 7 migraines in 5 weeks. I know that the chance of me losing another child is slim, but God has […]
Longer without you
Dear Phoenix, A few weeks ago marked 19 months since you passed. We have now entered a time I have been dreading – more time without you than with you. I only had 19 short months with you. It often seems so unfair that our time was cut short. The pain is unescapable. The pain of […]
My First Webinar
Sometime ago, I was asked by some fellow Apert moms to be apart of a webinar that they were putting together. After some reflection I agreed to do it. Honestly, I am glad I did. I had a great time talking about Phoenix and everything about her and her short amazing life. Honestly, I was […]
November-Febuary Was a Blur.
Yay! It is March!! Hip hip hooray! The holidays always seem crazy busy, but 2013 must of ordered extra crazy on the side. It all started with an ophthalmologist appointment (if you know me personally you know how much I loathe those) and bang everything got crazy. You can read the full story here. Phoenix […]
Chick fil’ A and the two different experiences
Last night Luke and I took Phoenix out for dinner and Christmas shopping. This was the first time I had taken Phoenix out since we got back from Dallas almost 2 weeks ago. To say I was nervous was an understatement. Not only did she just have surgery, but she looks really different now – […]
Happy Thanksmas!
Phoenix and I went to the St. Louis area to see family before her big surgery in December. While we were there we celebrated an early Thanksgiving and Christmas. Phoenix had a lot of fun playing with cousins and aunts and uncles. She also had her first Thanksgiving meal! Apparently, she wasn’t thankful that I […]
Hi Ho Hi Ho It’s Off To Dallas? We Go!
One thing we have learned on our journey is that plans are rarely set in stone. One moment you are making a packing list for Boston, the next you are rearranging everything to go to Dallas. Last week Phoenix had an appointment with an ophthalmologist for a check up, she has to have them every […]
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