Birthday Candle Through Tear Filled Eyes

Posted by on Sep 5, 2018 in Dear Phoenix, Life After Phoenix | No Comments

Dear Phoenix,

Today was my birthday and I miss you. Oh, how I wish you were here to celebrate with me. Then maybe I would actually feel like my birthday is worth celebrating – there isn’t much I feel like celebrating since you left. Your little brother, who isn’t really little, was actually able to sing happy birthday to me this year! Your little sister LOVED my birthday cheese cake. She gobbled it down like we were about to take away all the cheesecake in the world.

Your daddy picked me up a cheesecake for my birthday, and we sat around the table after dinner. Everyone sang to me, and I could swear I could hear your voice. Yet, I couldn’t. I wanted to hear your voice. I want to hear your voice. As I stared into the flame I only had one wish. I only have one wish. But, I know that wish is foolish, because you will never come back to me.

When the flame was blown out I was hit with the quiet of the room. The empty seat. The hole in my heart that will never be filled.

I am another year older. I am further away from you, but closer at the same time.

I love you baby girl. I miss you.


Birthday Cheesecake





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