Posted by on Nov 30, 2014 in Dear Phoenix | 2 Comments

Dear Phoenix, Mommy and Daddy just got back home from Thanksgiving. Traveling without you is a very odd experience. It always feels like somebody is missing. Because, you are missing from our lives. I always wonder what it would be like traveling with you and Little Brother. Would you bug him? Would he bug you? […]

Things I miss saying.

Posted by on Nov 25, 2014 in Life After Phoenix | No Comments

1. Don’t drink all the milk. She will need some in the morning. 2. You can’t pick up the cat….it’s half you weight! 3. When I say don’t touch the wire that includes touching it with your feet! 4. What does the cow say? 5. Hide the bread so she will eat her dinner. 6. […]

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

Posted by on Nov 24, 2014 in Life After Phoenix | 3 Comments

Recently, I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for something bad to happen. Ever since Phoenix passed, I can’t help thinking ‘What is next? What horrible thing is going to happen? I haven’t been promised that I won’t lose any more children. I haven’t even been promised that nothing bad will ever […]

Grief Stops You in Your Tracks. Literally.

Posted by on Nov 21, 2014 in Life After Phoenix | One Comment

Is “Grief stops you in your tracks” a phrase? If not, it should be. Grief literally can stop you in your tracks. It makes you roll into a little ball under the covers and never want come out. It makes stop walking and bend down and hug your knees. It makes you silently scream in your head […]

To Honor You

Posted by on Nov 18, 2014 in Life After Phoenix, Poetry | One Comment

This poem was read at the first Compassonate Friends meetings that Luke and I went to. To Honor You To honor you, I get up everyday and take a breath. and start another day without you. To honor you, I laugh and love with those who knew your smile And the way your eyes twinkled with […]

Bath Time

Posted by on Nov 11, 2014 in Dear Phoenix | One Comment

Dear Phoenix, Do you get baths in Heaven? You loved baths when you were still here. You would of taken one everyday if I let you. I should of let you. Guess what? Little Brother is just like you. He loves his baths, and screams when he has to get out until he is dressed. Just like you. Isn’t […]

A Child Of Mine

Posted by on Nov 2, 2014 in Life After Phoenix, Poetry | No Comments

One of Luke’s co-workers gave Luke this poem after Phoenix died. He recieved it when his son passed away. A Child of Mine -Edgar Guest I will lend you, for a little time, A child of mine, He said. For you to love the while she lives. And mourn for when she’s dead. It may […]