Congrats! You are a big sister! Little Brother was born about 2 weeks ago. He wasn’t as big as you were, in fact he still isn’t. We keep saying, “Wow! He is so small!” Even though he really isn’t that small. He was born with hair, just like you. But, you have him beat by a long shot! I don’t know of any other babies born with as much hair as you were. Knowing your personality, you would of loved him so much. There are times he makes a face, and he looks just like you. Mommy and Daddy forgot what it was like to take care of a newborn. Can you believe it? But you know what makes it even harder? The fact that you aren’t here. We were so ready to take of two kids, now there is only Little Brother here. I wish you were here too.
I want you to know that Little Brother will never replace you. You will always be my first born. You will always be my little girl. Don’t worry Mommy will never forget you.
This week has been hard on Mommy. Monday was the two month anniversary of your passing. It has been two months since I have seen your smiling face. Two months since I have heard you laugh. Two months with a broken heart. It is also getting closer to when we find out how you passed. I don’t know if I am ready. The medical examiner told me it didn’t hurt, that it was fast and you never woke up. But, other than that I have nothing else.
Baby Girl, I love you so much. I really wish you were with me. I want to be selfish and have you with me.